Ripples

When your heart is broken & didn't need to be

Choices that could have been avoided

...with just some thought of the ripples.

Ripples that forever change the future. 

Every choice is a ripple. 

Every ripple reaches far. 

Why must these ripples bring so much pain?

Is it possible for our ripples to bring healing?

My heart is broken. 

I've made choices that split it. 

Once close friends and the fissures grew. 

Death created a chasm. 

This brokenness feels so big. 

Too big for me to fix alone. 

Every choice is a ripple. 

Every ripple reaches far. 

Why must these ripples bring so much pain?

Is it possible for our ripples to bring healing?

My hope is that the ripples change. 

My hope is that they bring healing instead of pain. 

My hope is that these broken places can be knit together again. 

Not by me. Not by you. Only by Him. 

Forgiveness, will you be found in my ripples?  

Love, will you be found in my ripples?

To those who have hurt me & brought me this pain*: I pray one day you see your ripples & the pain they inflicted. I pray you find Him, His Truth & His love to be your healing balm...before the choice that can't be undone. 

*myself included

Election 2016 Angst

He has a documented history of speaking crassly about women. 

She has a documented history of lying. 

They are digging up 10 yr old videos of his crassness. 

Perhaps to distract from her recent lies. 

So the arguements go. 

I struggle with these 2 being our "best" options. Then I think about the Israelites, after entering the Promised Land, looking around and desiring what others had. They (the majority) wanted a King, I truly believe there were folks who did not want a King. Yet they all as one got what the majority asked for...Saul. 

That echoes the heartbeat of our culture today. We want equality of everything...so here we are. Our choices slim...the things we've asked for...or rather the majority has asked for. Equality...on the surface it sounds good. But when you start to do some digging into what that looks like, it is actually a very destructive word. 

Equality breeds entitlement. The kind of thinking that leads some of the we to cease striving to work hard, do well, learn more. While other we continue to work hard, do well, learn more so they can get ahead, a job promotion, pay off loans, willingly help others. Some of the we begin to expect the other we who work hard, do well, learn more to foot their bill too. Soon the other we, have nothing left to give, grow weary from working so hard & have no time left to learn more. 

It is happening all around us, daily. Look around...I don't want something that is not mine. I don't want this kind of equality. I don't what the majority is asking for...but I think I may not have a say (kind of like the 2 spies!) and it may be that the other we no longer matter. 

I find myself wondering just what God wants us to do, not what some of the we or the other we want. And if you are like me, you are probably spending more time thinking about it, reading about it, talking about it & very little time praying about it. 

Father, forgive me. Help me spend more time talking & listening to You.